She didn't like side-stepping the issue. Yes, she wasn't always the best lieutenant. She hated paperwork, she did enjoy her drinking, but she was loyal to her captain. She was damn loyal, no matter what happened she stood by him. She may of wanted clarification on some things, and often complained, but she wanted to see her captain happy and not always working. But that wasn't what was bothering her, for some reason, she kept hearing rumors. That she wasn't a good lieutenant, that she was just lazy and couldn't do her job. That they felt sorry for the young captain having to deal with her. She kept her head held high, she wasn't going to change for them. No matter what they said, she cared about her captain more than what they did. Even when her captain yelled at her for being lazy she'd respond back with a whine or something playful. She pulled her own weight around, the soul society. The whisper of voices floated around her, she was going to ignore them, she needed to. She finally got to a place she could be by herself. She closed her eyes and just stood there. Trying to block out all the noise she felt like she was hearing. Did a tear just fall down? She wasn't sure if she could trust herself to open her eyes. She wasn't going to let them tear herself down, not now.